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Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Today is pop a blood vessel Wednesday.




Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Turn that smile upside down.
Sunday is going to be stressful. I hope to take it off. So I wont panic over if I can go to Brian's and pick my dad up from the airport.

I notice a lot more about people when I grow farther apart.
It's really not the same.

Bio exam.... I studied. I reviewed over the stuff. But I didnt study for cell bio. Didn't know it was on it. And got a 55... It's really depressing...

Im so used to failing that it's normal to me now ._.

The only time I improved was that one week when I was so stressed out. I did so bad with everything in english, and put the utmost effort into this one paper and finally got a B+. I need that B+ for Bio...

I was never a school person... The last time I studied was in 4th grade. I memorized text books. And ever since 5th grade, I studied all I could and got failing grades it just killed my hope. I stopped studying, and even got slightly better grades.

I stopped doing my homework in middle school. Because of Study. Homework in school, why not? Then it became a habit. And I never got to pull myself together and do my homework at  home. They were always scribbled in before class began. Or I hoped that the teacher didnt collect it.

I never wanted to grow up after 6th grade...

It's been a while. It's been awhile since I was so depressed. It's been awhile since I cried because of it...



Monday, December 07, 2009

Waking up early to study? Not working.
I can NEVER bring myself to study. Ever.

I honestly don't know why I go to college...

My right ear piercing isnt complete. Still. It still bleeds occasionally...
I plan to get two more on my left ear. And leave it at that.

I love lab enough to learn everything I should have in lecture, in just 2 hours. And eventually get it. And thanks to my lab partner. He helps out A LOT with what I dont understand.

My room goes up to like 90 degrees. It gets really hot...

My web cam just came in the mail. My Christmas list is 1/5 done... Kinda sad... Only because my dad's GPS wont go through! I hate paypal >[
I think I might buy my mom's camera at the store instead of online... I cant find anything less than 150 ._.
I dont know what to get Babe and Babycakes D;!

Im still down at 0 for my savings to Taiwan...

And I still want to go snowboarding... That's like. 300-400 dollars.



Thursday, December 03, 2009

All week I thought about where I am.

I am on a boat. A big boat really. And the people who's on the boat with me? There's no one here.

I gave thought upon thought upon thought. And I just tried to cheer myself up. It worked a little. For a few seconds, and then it dies.

I know what the problem is, but I cant do anything.
I can only wait on that boat and see where it ends up. Maybe it'll stop by an island and pick some people up, or it'll just sail forever.

I gave up really.
I gave up like a did some months ago.

Made smoothies today. It was okay.

Now I have english to day. 3-4 pages. The 2 pages are gonna be done tomorrow morning. And the 1 about my progress, im going to do about now.

Stressing myself out over nothing. I've gone back to watching dramas.
I've stayed up for no reason. I could have gone to bed hours ago, but I decide not to and just waste my time bumming around.

Sailing sailing...


Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Im bloated. And i've been eating non stop. It's been a depressing week. And when Im depressed, I always tend to try to work out... Until I sweat until I cant take it anymore.

So I watched SS501's MV video collection thing. It's cute. Kim HyunJoong is a cutie. I really gotta finish watching Boys Before Flowers. I left off on Episode 11. And then stopped ._.

Gotta go back to watching Dramas too. I need a good cry.

I want to go home and sleep.

Chinese, Bio, Nutrition, Work, Home, Bum. Schedule for the day. How exciting. 100 Days in 2 days.

Then Brian's dim sum breakfast on the 13th or something. I forgot what day. Sunday. Then Andy's maybe on the 23rd.

Schedule of the month!

college Drop out. Life, im not ready for you. Im not ready for anything.



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